The chair collapsed. I took a photo of the dust as it settled in the abandoned factory.
There were noises outside. Not a security guard, they came stomping around to scare off intruders. It wouldn’t be Vanessa either. Sometimes she comes with me. My most popular photos are of her posed around diseased and dying buildings. In red at the old hospital at Dahlem, I got thousands of downloads for that. But she’s bored, on her phone in the car, ‘keeping an eye out.’ Things haven’t worked out as she wanted. Timo is telling her he can get her in front of more eyeballs, I know he is.
That sound again. It could be paper, blown around, all the windows are cracked. Could be rats. Birds.
I creep upstairs. I’m careful on the stairs, push plaster and bottles and wrappers off each step before I trust them with my weight. I won’t fall. But I’m in trouble if security does turn up. The guard’s not going to chase me. All he has to do is wait for me to come down again.
It’s starting to get dark. One photo of the rat or the bird or…. And that’s it. Time to go home.
Loud. Must be the acoustics. I send Vanessa a text with lots of emojis. She’s turned off read notifications. If I plunge through the stairs it’ll be the last thing I ever write.
It was David who got me into these places. Old buildings, boarded up and locked. But always with some way in for the determined. He was a quiet guy, responsible. It didn’t seem like him at all, breaking into private — if unwanted — property. But his eyes lit up as he squeezed through whatever door or window allowed him in. I think he was looking for something. Because I’m looking for something too.
Right now I’m looking for that rat, though it must be a whole family of the fuckers judging by the noise. One shot. It could be a rat king, how cool would that be? That’d get me downloads again. Maybe enough to….
I have to shout this internal monologue in my head because the rustling is so loud. If the stairs were easier to navigate I might well turn back. I have the collapsed chair and the dust: that’ll make a fantastic gif.
But I’m looking for more than the photo. What? When everyone has moved on, what’s left? I want to document that in my photos. I wish Vanessa was here. The last of the sunlight is shining through a window at the top of the landing. I could get such an amazing shot ofher silhouette.
The rustling. I follow the noise to the end of the corridor, my camera held out protectively. I can’t afford for anything to happen to it (I can’t afford for anything to happen to me either?). The windows are boarded up and it’s dark but it’s the right place. I can hear it, I can see the movement. Like the whole floor is shivering but it’s the plaster and the paper and the rats underneath. There must be dozens. It’s the whole floor. One photo and I’m out of here.
In the flash I see the room for one tiny second. I’ve found what I’m looking for.
There are no rats in the room, no birds. The floor is shivering and there is no plaster and no paper. It’s the floorboards. There’s a bed in the corner and a person — or what used to be a person, or what will be a person on it. They stretch a hand out to me, the wasted skin is awful. The floor is shivering because it’s growing a carpet. There’s a wall paper pattern seeping onto the walls. There’s a hole where all the dirt and plaster and rats have been sucked in and swallowed.
The room is remaking itself to suit the person in the bed. I realise where David went. Because the same thing s going to happen to me. Because I’m in the bed. The building wants me. I want to stay.
